everythings wrong with everything.

I just cant help but worry most of my nights on so much.
Being worried gets to me a lot, i tend to get discomfort from it, and soon my mood disfigures to unsure and discontent.
This world, makes me feel so unsure and hardly safe.
Im so unaware of many things, and i cant stand it.
I'd like to be that change though, the kind that can mean a difference, and this world could actually be tagged as a place that has actually changed.
I struggle to new notions and daily habits.
I struggle to stop with bad habits to make them into old and idle things.

I need a world that can be considered content,
i want a world that does not carry problems enough to upset people.
I wish i could change the world i want to see, but i cannot set my mind to it, im still in the past struggling to get out for freedom and try new healthy habits for myself and this world itself.

Its hard to live in a world that you can stand it's smell,
Or cannot stand what you see from your eyes, or what you just witnessed.
I dont feel comfortable in a place where there is cnstant war, and hardly any positive solution is made.
I cant understand why when you hear strong talkers say they will change this world, or they already have, why is it, i dont feel that change?
why..

If ones who say they cannot understand things,
then i myself, cannot either,
which makes not just me, but everyone blind from so much, and thats why we are all physically getting sick and mentally getting complications in life.
This world is not what it use to be... and this world is not what the world, the world wants to see.